Miss you Papaw <3 (2)

Papaw bought a brand new car for my Mamaw and even installed a security system in the house to keep her safe. At the time we all thought he was just doing these things cause he wanted to but we would realize later that it was all done for a reason. My Papaw even made sure that all the little projects around the home were taken care so my Mamaw would not have to deal with it. He had the porch resurfaced and even had my Mamaw get new furniture that she had wanted.
After he was sure that everything was taken care of my Papaw decided that it was his time to go. One day he told my Mamaw that he wanted to be taken to the doctor so that they could turn off the device on his heart that was keeping him alive. I will never forget the night my Mom called me here at school to tell me that he did not have much time left. I prayed that night that he would last until I got there the next morning so that I could say my final goodbye but when my dad showed up at my school 3 hours away from home without telling me the next morning...i knew that it was too late.
My Papaw died that morning with his wife of 55 years and three daughters by his side. He told them moments before not to worry and that he was going to heaven to be with his daughter that he had lost when she was only sixteen. He told them that he would see them again someday.

Miss you Papaw <3 (1)

This past september my family and I had to go through something that was the most tragic thing in all our lives. My Papaw (mom's dad) passed away. We lost a grandfather, dad, and husband. I had never lost anyone that close to me before and when I found out that he was not doing well I wasn't sure how I was going to deal with it. But somehow my Papaw, being the amazing man that he was, did things without us even knowing before he passed that made things a little easier for us.

Papaw Jim had something put on his heart a couple years ago that helped regulate his heartbeats. It made him better at first but after a while he started to get even worse and soon got to the point that he could not do much more than sit in his recliner. This discouraged my Papaw incredibly because he has always been someone who loved to be up and doing things, especially playing his guitar. He was getting very frustrated with how dependent he had come and it got to the point that he realized that he did not want to live like that anymore. And without us knowing, he started making some changes that assure him his family would be taken care of after he passed. (Continue next post)

My Collage

So I made this collage out of some people that mean a whooole lot to me. : )

There are a couple pics of me with my bf Rob...we have been together for about ten months and he is awesome! He always knows how to make me laugh! <3 him

There is also a pic of me and my mom. She is amazzzing and is always there for me. I love her and my dad so much. I have no idea what I would do without them.

There are a couple pics of me and my cousins. We are all so close and I miss them so much when I am away for school.

Then there is a pic of me and my two VERY BEST FRIENDS!! Sarah and Laura...We have been best friends since we were babies and will be forever! I love and miss them

wow...so bball season is over now.
I can't really explain just how hard this season has been. I guess to wrap it up in one statement: we set a school record for most losses in a season...yeah.
So now it's time to just forget about what happened this year and focus on the next. It's just so dang frustrating because I see how much talent each one of us has and how hard we work. Not to mention all of the freakin running we do. I really wish I could pinpoint the problem that caused all of the losses but I can't. And I think that is what is bugging me the most.

But anyway

I have no idea what to do with all of my freetime. I don't think a lot of people really realize just how much time goes into playing a sport. So now I have to figure out what the heck to do all the time. I would love to believe that I will work out a lot but I just dont know ha.

Valentine Weekend!!

So Valentine's day was this past weekend and i had so much fun. I feel kind of bad because I had all these plans about what to get my bf but I never had time to do any of it : ( So I took the easy way out and took him to dinner. ha! We went to the Cheesecake Factory on friday...yum!! we had to wait like an hour and a half but it was still really fun. So then Saturday I had a bball game at Franklin which is only bout an hour from my house and almost my whole family and my boyfriend surprised me by coming. I was so happy because I am so close to my fam and I hadn't seen them since Christmas. : ) So that was amazing. Later that night we tried to go out to eat but since it was Vday every place had like a three hour wait...so me and my bf spent our valentine's day dinner at steak and shake with my fam lol...and I wouldn't have had it any other way. : ) Sunday we went to church and just spent the whole day bein lazy and eatin mom's cookin(which is amazzzin)
So basically i had an awesome weekend and can't wait till I can go home again!

My Wreck : (

So all of this snow on the roads constantly makes me remember what happened about four years ago. Something that has ended up having both good and bad consequences. Just about a month after getting my license i had an accident on the way to school one morning. My tire got into the slush on the side of the road and i ended up completely flipping my car twice before stopping. I remember opening my eyes while this was happening and seeing all of my stuff spinning like a tornado. I also remember screaming at the top of my lungs the whole time. During the accident my side window busted open. And as i flipped my hand flew out and smashed against the pavement, ripping three of my fingernails completely off and tearing off the skin on half of my middle finger. I have been told a lot that I am lucky that my hand was the only thing that was hurt and i completely believe that if I hadn't had my seat belt on then my injury would have been much worse. Something that I observed later after the whole thing was that even with two windows busted out and glass being spread all over the car, there was not a single piece on me. It literally looked like there was a line drawn around my body to where the glass did not touch me. If that can't make someone believe that someone was watching over me, I don't know what could.